Seasons of What

How do you measure a year?



The Rally

The vague sense that Things Are Going To Be Okay has been tugging at me today, but I think I'm just happy to get two days off. Nevertheless, I'm going to ride this mofo as long as possible. The Rally: if Tess of the d'Urbervilles can do it, so can I! (Let's not think about the end just yet.)

An open-ended question: what is a good synonym for "held your gaze?" That is so lame. I don't want to use it.



I have a potpourri of topics to discuss.

Halloween was maximized. There are pictures. Go to myspace or something.

Sudoku makes me anxious. For some reason, I had it in my head that people did these puzzles to relieve stress. I would say there is a certain mind-numbing quality to it, because you enter this mode where all you think about is numbers and boxes. However, it's difficult for me to exit that mode. Crosswords I can leave unfinished and come back to. But the Sudoku boxes are there and want to be filled with numbers and it's the same logic over and over and there's a whole adjacent page with blank spaces!!!

"If I lay here, If I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?" Okay, I love this song. It is beautiful. It is raw emotion. I am a sucker for songs involving driving or that you think would sound good while driving. The whole laying/forgetting the world is everything I wanted when I was 17 years old, and I still want it on some days. But now I think it would be better to find someone to BE in the world with rather than someone to escape it with. Do you know what I mean or not? Of course, this perspective is shaped by previous experience, and how I, like, have not been, like,all too successful at "being in the world" with the handful of people who have wanted just that from me.

I'm a slow learner. This may help inform next year's Halloween costume.

The final episode of Six Feet Under made me cry both times I watched it this week. I need this shit on DVD. It's my equivalent of Jen's death throes, or Roger Waters. Rest in peace.